Do not be afraid. Do not fear… this is stated 365 times in the Bible. Not a coincidence that there are 365 days a year. Thats a reminder every day that fear is not of God and that he has us. I have used up about 125 of those reminders this morning alone.
This will be my fourth surgery on the same knee. I’m having the typical fear/anxiety nightmares of accidental body parts being removed. Which are actually quite humorous later on. Just not in the thick of it.
The fear of waking up during surgery, pain after surgery and all of the little complications my ridiculously vivid imagination can come up with were the pesky noisemakers that kept me awake most of the night. On the bright side, that gives me a better chance of not waking up during the procedure right?
What are the fears vs the facts?
- Fear, what if I wake up? Facts, very unlikely. If it does happen there is still a nerve block in place.
- Fear,post surgical pain. Fact, it’s going to be there but I have a high pain tolerance.
- Fear what if something happens and I don’t wake up at all. Fact, EXTREMELY unlikely. If that in fact were to happen, I get to sit with Jesus.
- Fear,What if everything falls apart at work and I get fired for not prepping better. Fact, this place runs with or without me. If that happens God has something better planned.
Fact fact fact….I’m in good hands, God loves me, and I have Amazing support waiting on the other side.
So , all of that being said….here we go, irrational fear slightly subsiding. Finding trust and loosing my grip.
See you on the flip side
Isaiah 41:10 New International Version (NIV)
So do not fear,for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.